There is not enough paper and or ink to show just how much I miss this man being home. He was put in my life for a VERY good reason. God knows that I AM THE CARETAKER FOR ALL that should be in my life ! And he put this man in my path. I am so thankful that God blessed me with this experience , and yet I am angry because he took him away from me. My dear friend is not physically gone yet but I know he will be soon and there is nothing anyone can say that will ease the pain in my soul !
God has blessed me with this man ; as he has with the my own Father, who died at 42 from diabetes. And God blessed me with my Papa who lived until 86 years old. And God also blessed me with my Grandma and my Uncle who are no longer here either. I feel, them with me EVERY SINGLE DAY !!!,
I will drive myself nuts trying to figure God out ! And yeah...oh yeah yeah yeah , there's no words to explain the hurt that stays in my soul.
Certain people who THINK they know me , just think this is a phase and that time will heal my heart.
Bullshit !!
